yep, im still here..hangin by a thread

just fyi, if its the last thing I do, ill get an explanation as to why, why this woman chose to tear my life apart, in every sense....my whole life has been a series of attempts at putting my trust in people...and ultimately being let down...but I never gave up on the hope that eventually, someone would show up and make it all worth while...and as strange as it may seem, I felt kim was that person...because she had lived a similar life, although she reacted differently. I actually thought she would appreciate someone who didn't judge her..who was patient...who would sacrifice...once again, in the end, she turned out to be just a self centered, self serving sociopath...not caring in the least about the pain she was, and still is causing not just me, but countless others.. anyway, the hard feelings are pretty much gone...now its just craving truth...something I have the right to know...I will...I swear..